9/29/10

Tsubasa

"I'm sorry did I bother you? I just up and went anywhere with out thinking."

She looked exhausted, like she hadn't sleep in days. Was it because of my condition that keep her up? Part of me wanted that to be the case, because that would mean she was thinking of me. However, the other part didn'twant to be the cause of her despair.

Atleast now I know part of why Kabuto hates me. Now that I'm around he doesn't get to monoplize Hana's attention. Most piss him off, I know I would be.

"You look tired, maybe you should get some rest."

11/19/09

Hana

It's taken so long, it seems. But I think I've got it. I think I finally know how I'm going to save him. Unfortunately, it may cost me my life...

I pace around in my room a little longer, unsure of whether to tell my brother or not. It's...going to be difficult...but I need his help if this is to work.

"This is the only way," I say, trying to convince myself of this, before walking out of the room for the first time in months. I stop short when I notice him...awake.

"Tsubasa?" I ask. "You...?"

10/22/09

Tsubasa

My head was pounding so much that couldn't believe that it was only because of the fall. My neck wasn't unbearable but I really wanted to take Orochimaru's head off. What ever he did it caused Hana a lot of pain.

Hana's room was just down the hall, but it felt like forever to get there. Feelings of joy and dread swept across me. As I stood outside the door posed to knock, I heard a faint humming sound. Mesmerized by the voice, I just stood there and listened to it.

How could someone so perfect ever have any feelings for me? Is it pity? Desperation? Or does she truly love me?

I resolved to ask her later when she came out of her room and began heading back to where Kabuto was.

9/15/09

Kabuto

"I wouldn't disturb her if I were you..." Damn, does that boy know anything?!

I sighed and closed my book. "It would be best for you to stay here. She's busy, like I said."

Love...I'll never understand what people find so appealing in it.

7/2/09

Tsubasa

I got up and my knees buckled under me. Sending me down to the floor.

"Ow, I banged my head againt the edge of the bed."

Despite the pain, I got up again, this time more slowly and began to walk to Hana's room.

5/21/09

Kabuto

"Why do you think? Hana's busy, so she can't." I really didn't like this guy, despite Lord Orochimaru's sudden interest in him. He just rubbed me the wrong way, and I'm not going to hide that from him. I. Don't. Like. Him.

I glanced worriedly at Hana's room. She hadn't come out since I'd come over. She hasn't seen the light of day in who knows how long. But I know how she gets when she's determined, so it's best not to bother her.

5/20/09

Tsubasa

I quietly thanked Kabuto, ate the ramen, and looked out the window. It was raining out so Hana was most likely inside.

A month is a long time to sleep. Maybe I should go see Hana, then work out a bit. I really need to.

"Kabuto, why are you watching me?"

5/19/09

Hana

I have no idea how long I've been at this. My brother comes in sometimes and gives me food, but aside from that, I never know what time it is or how long it's been. But I know I'm close.

...Maybe.

Kabuto

I looked at him and then back at my book. "About a month." I glanced toward Hana's room and sighed. Why was she trying so hard for this guy?

I decided he must be starving so I got up and made some ramen. I brought it over to him with a glass of sake and put it on his bedside table. "You should eat something," I said, turning my attention back to my book.

5/11/09

Tsubasa

I woke up with a start, breathing heavy and drenched in my own. My shoulder was in intense pain. I looked around my room looking for Hana. Instead, I found Kabuto reading a book. Why was he here?

How long have been out of it? What was Hana doing now? Where was that bastard Orochimaru, I still want to kick his ass for biting me.

I looked back to Kabuto. "how long have I been out?"

5/7/09

Hana

I woke up with rain hitting my face. I sat up and wondered how long I'd been asleep. Oh crap, Tsubasa's still in the house! I ran back inside and saw that he'd rolled over. He must've woken up.

I made him more comfortable and sat next to the bed. As I looked at him, another thought came to me. Maybe I could stop this from happening. Maybe I could come up with a cure.

Was it possible to take this away from him though? Could I really save him? I wondered for a while if I was even capable of it, or even strong enough to. But something told me that I could, I just had to try. So with a kiss to his overheated lips, I went into my room and began planning.

Orochimaru

That boy would be an excellent vessel. To bad he already belonged to Hana. The mark I gave him is one that I made recently. It would kill him within a year if Hana doesn't learn to make a curse or charm that could save his life.

This was my final lessen to her. And if she can't overcome this one, then she will lose the one she cares for.

5/5/09

Tsubasa

I awoke to find out that my neck still hurt like hell. I thought Hana would be by my bed just like the first time I woke up in this house. I guess I was out of for too long for her stay by my side the entire time.

My entire body ached like it was on fire. As I got up, I heard this scream of despair coming from outside. Intinct told me that it had Hana, but I really didn't want them to be right. I was at the door when something in my gut told me that I wasn't alone.

I didn't care, I only wanted to make Hana feel better, and make her forget her worries.

Hana

I looked at him laying in his bed and I stroked his cheek. He was sweating like crazy, and he kept muttering incoherently, like he was having a nightmare. I felt tears fall onto my hand-I hadn't noticed I was crying. I got up and changed the cold wrap that I'd put on his forehead.

Why had he given Tsubasa the curse mark? It...it makes no sense. I know he must've been impressed with him, but...to trust him with something so big so soon?

I sat near him and held his shaking hand. I kissed him softly and he winced. "Please...you have to hold on..." I didn't want him to be killed like this. I didn't want to lose him, not now. I thought about why Lord Orochimaru would trust him with this gift, and a thought caused my heart to stop.

What if he wants to use Tsubasa-kun as his next vessel?

Suddenly I had to scream. I ran outside and screamed at the top of my lungs. I screamed until there was no air left in me, and then darkness surrounded me. I felt lightheaded, tears rolling down my cheeks, and I passed out.

Kabuto

So there I was, watching as Lord Orochimaru bit my sister's boyfriend in the neck. Uhh...I'm pretty sure this wasn't supposed to happen.

She's yelling at him now. Luckily, Tsubasa can't hear a thing. He collapsed shortly before she lost it. Why is she so upset? This means that Orochimaru accepts Tsubasa, and he won't kill him. What's the big deal?

5/1/09

Tsubasa

"I...Feel...Funny, What did you do to me!?" My neck burned like hell.

That freak bit me, I wasn't going to kill him before but I was now.

Or so I thought, standing was proving to be beyond my ability. walking was definitly out of the question. Every thing was going black.

Don't pass out, don't pass out, don't... pass...

Orochimaru

Maybe I shouldn't mess around any more. He's really reliable, more than I thought.

How about I give him a parting gift. I turned and looked at him, smile on my face. My neck extended and I bite him on the neck, leaving the curse mark on him. Now he was mine. And that was something Hana couln't stop, even if she tried.

Kabuto

I laughed when he fell into the hole. How could he have possibly missed that? I noticed it when I walked over. Maybe he was too caught up in messing with Tsubasa to notice.

Whoa, did he seriously just stab him? How did he...How could he...but...HUH??

Hana

I didn't think, I just moved. I couldn't believe Tsubasa had actually gotten him! How is that even possible?

I jumped down from the roof and ran over to them. "Lord Orochimaru, are you all right?" I looked at Tsubasa and felt more love for him than I thought I could even possess. I eased the sword out of his shoulder and forced myself to tear my eyes away from Tsubasa. "Geez, it was in there deep." I carefully began treating it and smiled brightly. "You're full of surprises, aren't you Tsubasa-kun?" I said quietly.

Orochimaru

Hm... Shadow clone, huh? And I was having so much fun. He just had to go and ruin it by using such an outdated jutsu. What makes him think I would just stand here and let him finish.

I'm very disappointed, I think I'll kill him now.

As I was walking to interrupt him, I fell into what was THE most primitive trap ever. A hole covered by leaves.

"Heh, heh, HA HA HA HA HA! Boy, you are just full of surprise aren't ya? Most have stayed up all night digging and covering this outdated trap" I said as I climbed out of the hole.
I looked around, surrounded huh? No problem, I can take them all out in less than ten minutes.
Half gone in four I still was uninjuried. That is, until the boy himself stabbed me threw the shoulder from my blind spot.

Tsubasa

It's not easy fighting someone way past your level. I mean, come on! I've been on the defense sine this entire fight started. It was like multiple people at once. At least it seemed he wasn't going to kill me.

He was enjoying himself, and to be honest, so was I. I noticed Hana was watching from the roof. Her being way up there, gave me an idea.

What if I attacked from a tree and aimed at his blind spot, would that work? Maybe but how would I get there? How about the doppelganger jutsu? No, he'd see through it. What about the shadow clone jutsu? If I make enough it might actually work.

I jumped away and began forming the signs as quickly as I can. Please let that trap I set work or I'll never have enough time to finish it.

Kabuto

I smiled. She's taking this better than I thought she would. But I'm sure Lord Orochimaru is just playing with him...

I wonder if she's really this okay with it. I think she's hiding something. And I'm usually right.

Hana

It was too much for me. I wrestled out of my brother's arms and ran to the window. I watched, horrified, as Orochimaru attacked him from all sides. I hadn't gotten that far in our training! I forced myself to blink back tears as he tried his best to defend himself. But he wasn't running away.

I decided to sneak a closer look. I jumped out of a spot in the roof I never fixed and watched from above. Lord Orochimaru didn't seem to be interested in killing him, which was good news for Tsubasa. But he was going at him with more than I thought he would. He's only trained with Kabuto-kun and I like that. Oh boy, I hope he's prepared for this.

Whoa...I had to blink a few times. He looks just like Rio from up here...

"You can do it, Tsubasa-kun! Show him what you're made of!" I cheered.

4/30/09

Orochimaru

I was surprise that he would openly challenge me. I know he could sense my imense chakra, so what makes him think he can beat me?

He was interesting. I know Hana didn't train him to use that blade, so he most have had some skills of his own. Hmmm, a few more intense test and then I'll accept him as the man who might marry Hana. Of course, I just can't allow that, not with my plans so close to completion.

But he really was an interesting boy. If Hana hadn't found him first, I might have used him as my next vessel.

Now, how to attack next?

How was Hana holding up after reliving the events of two years ago?

Tsubasa

Orochimaru looked like a snake. A snake with a bad habit of using forbidden jutsu. All I was armed with was a katana. True, I was very good, hell probaly one of the best. But, I don't think I can Orochimaru.

Reasoning was out of the question... I think. But I didn't want to run the risk of being cut down while talking.

I drew my katana and stood there, waiting to see if Orochimaru would accept my challenge. The longer I stood th more worried I got. He was most likly examaning me.

Something was behind me, and instantly I acted by swinging my blade around.

The attack didn't connect... This was going to be a long night...

Kabuto

I saw the hurt in my sister's eyes and instantly wanted to kill Tsubasa myself. How dare he do this to her? What was he thinking, taking on Lord Orochimaru?

I held my sister close and noticed she was trembling. I gritted my teeth and looked out the window.

"Dad...don't kill him..." she kept muttering. "Please...give him a chance..."

If Tsubasa survives, I'm going to rip his throat out.

Hana

I was horrified. He wasn't ready for this! Why was he going to risk his life like this? Yeah, he was progressing better than I could've possibly imagined, but still. To take on Lord Orochimaru so soon?

I wanted to chase after him and tell him to stop. He didn't need to prove anything to me. I didn't want him to die this way. He can't hope to beat Orochimaru...

4/29/09

Orochimaru

It was interesting to see that Hana has found a new toy so soon after the last one had been so easy to scare away.

Heh, I hope this one will provide me with atleast a little fun. That boy Rio wouldn't even try. Turned tail and ran never to look at Hana the same again. Guess we intimidated him. Maybe he'll become my new toy, there are so many things that I could have do.

Looks like that boy left the house, shame really since that was the only place he was protected. This is interesting, he's looking for me. Does he even know about the last boy that was in his shoes?

Maybe I can have a little fun with him.

Tsubasa

"Leave? Now why the hell would I do that?" Me? afraid? Of course, but I wasn't going to leave. That would be like killing Hana indirectly, and that was something I was definitely not going to do.

Even if she wanted me to, I wasn't going to leave. I walked up to Hana and held her tight. I whispered something in her ear, but I don't remember what I said.

As I turned to leave I looked at Kabuto, he didn't look too happy about my decision. Instead, he looked as if he want to kill me himself.

But, he doesn't know that I about to put my life on the line. As I left I grabed the katana that was next to my bedroom door.

I was planning to die I mean, I was trained for this fight wasn't I?

Kabuto

I was surprised by her sudden outburst. Didn't she love him? Just like...Rio...

Damn! This is exactly what happened with Rio! He stops by unexpectedly and she's caught off guard. Of course, she didn't know that he'd abandon her the way he did, but now she must be afraid this guy would do the same thing.

"If you really love my sister, stay by her side," I said to him. "Make me regret comparing you to Rio. Show me you're worthy to date my sister."

Hana

I couldn't believe it. Why now? Why when everything was finally going right? I cursed myself for getting him involved, but I knew I didn't have time to think about it. "Tsubasa, you need to leave." I turned my back to him and started to gather things for him. "Come back tomorrow if you want to, but..." I paused. This couldn't really be happening, could it? Not when I was feeling so...wait a minute. Isn't this what happened with Rio?

I couldn't help myself. Without meaning to, I started to cry. "Get OUT!" I didn't mean to sound as harsh as I did, but I didn't want my past to repeat itself.

I'm sorry, Tsubasa-kun...

Kabuto

I felt like I was being watched. This wasn't good. That means...oh crap.

I pushed past Tsubasa and closed the door. "Hana-chan, get Tsubasa out of here." My face must've gone pale because when I turned to face her, she looked afraid. "It's Lord Orochimaru...he's here."

4/27/09

Tsubasa

She must have done something terrible if she's living out here. I was expecting something like Too many people or something.

There was a subtle knock at the door, I figured Kabuto would come by sometime this week. 

As I went to the door to let him in, but stopped as I felt this enormous pressure or chakra as Hana calls it. It was too strong to be Kabuto and it had a killing intent that Kabuto got rid of for the sake of his sister.

Very cautiously, I walked to the door. The closer I got the stronger the chakra became. 

"Hey Kabuto, is there anyone else here?"

Kabuto

"Hey, Hana! Can I come in?" I knocked anxiously on the door. Ever since I'd found out she had a new boyfriend, I've been worried sick about her. I've already told him that if he runs out on her, he's a dead man.

I hated that boy. There was something about him that just screamed RIO.

Oh shit, I had to see Orochimaru first. I hope he doesn't try to find me.

Hana

I smiled. "There's no way I'm letting you go before I do."

Then I sighed heavily. "See, that's a long story..." I really didn't want him to know what a monster I used to be. I didn't want to tell him how I'd killed half of them and the only reason I'd stopped was because I grew bored of them. And that was when I was five!

"Have you ever done something so terrible that it hangs over you everyday and no matter how you try to forget it, it seems to haunt you?" I sighed again and looked away. "I'm afraid they'll remember me, remember what I did, and try to kill those that I love. Not to mention...Rio lives there." I winced when I said his name. Man, I haven't thought about him this much since he abandoned me...and Kabuto kicked his ass of course.

Speaking of which, where IS Kabuto?

4/24/09

Tsubasa

I love how she still gets embarrassed when she tell me that she love me, it was so cute that I just had to kiss her again. You'd never think such a powerful woman was still so shy underneath all that attitude.

"I love you too, but don't think I'm gonna let you die before me. I plan to make that sacrifice first." I have more to lose than you, I thought to myself.

I wander what Kabuto was up to these days. He used to come over everyday after his attempted  murder had failed. He openly distrusted me, not that I blame him... Not after what he told me about Rio, and how he left Hana. He told me about how Hana had felt betrayed by him when he looked at her, not as a woman that he love, not even as a human being. He looked terrified of her, as if she was death reincarnated.

Kabuto is determined to not let that happen again.

"Your turn, I want to know why you live out here and not in the village?"

Hana

I laughed. "Of course I know who samurai are!" I snuggled closer to him and held his hand. "I'm sorry about your scar, and that idiot who did that to you. I'm sorry your life has been so full of hell." I smiled. "But I promise I'm going to make your life better than it's ever been. You'll see what true happiness is, even if it kills me."

And I meant it. I wanted to show him that not everyone on this earth was evil. I wanted him to know there was someone, even if it was only me, that loved him and wanted him to be happy. But how do I do it? I have a feeling that there's something he's keeping from me, or trying to suppress. If there's anything I've learned from Lord Orochimaru, it's that keeping painful memories bottled up will keep them with you. The best way is to let them go, and look forward.

I kissed him softly and looked down. "I..." I breathed. "I love you, Tsubasa."

4/22/09

Tsubasa

Something about myself? I don't know much about myself. I think the guy in the dreams is me, but I can't really be too sure. I was going through all the dreams I've had so far. I keep going over them until, something really odd hit me.

Did that guy get attacked by his best friend who cut him in the back? And not once, but twice? One horizontal, and the other vertical?

"I think I used to be a samurai. Do you know what that is? Anyways, the scar on my back was a parting gift from a friend from long ago. It wasn't a very nice gift."

Hana

"You've surprised me, Tsubasa," I said from the kitchen one night. I brought him a few bandages and some soup and laid them on the table beside his bed. I smiled at him and kissed his cheek.

I've only dreamed I'd find a guy who stuck with me for as long as he has. He's been doing perfectly with everything. It's surprising. Honestly, I keep expecting to wake up and find out I'm still alone and everyone is still too afraid of me to glance in my direction without flinching.

I wonder what's going to happen when he meets Lord Orochimaru. Will he run like Rio did? ...I hope not...

Flashes of training him pop into my head at times because Tsubasa is so much like him. He's like a mysterious and damaged puppy that just wants someone to love. I clearly remember the day he saw my lord the first time. He looked at me like I was some kind of freak and ran away. I never saw him again.

But something about Tsubasa tells me he's been through worse. I looked into his eyes and smiled again. "Hey, could you tell me something about you? I don't really care what, and it doesn't have to be too personal if you don't want me to know anything huge. Please? I'll tell you something about me if you want."

Tsubasa

"Ready for hell? I awoke in it." Training with Hana has been like a dream come true. It would be perfect if I wasn't being plagued by nightmares.

There all different, but they all involve the same guy. He was always being used as an assassin by those he considered his friends. The girl he loved, loved someone else, and his own family didn't care much for him.

All in all, his life generally sucked.

But why was I seeing these? What were my dreams trying to tell me? Do I know this person? Is this person... Me?

I feel very troubled by this. Can't really concentrate on training. The only thing That gets my full undivided attention is Hana Yakushi, the girl I WILL live and die for. Not plan, not want, will.

4/21/09

Hana

I'm surprised that Tsubasa hasn't given up yet. It's been a few days and I've done some pretty awful things to him. But he still won't quit.

...I like that in a guy.

"You have GOT to come at me with the intent to kill. If you don't do that, you can't possibly hope to beat me. The kinds of people I'm involved with aren't going to cut you any slack. You saw that with my brother." I took my stance and smiled. "You ready for hell?"

4/20/09

Tsubasa

Its been a few days since I started the hellish training with Hana, she was right to say it isn't easy. I've been thrown into trees, rocks, and some thorn bushes.

But, Hana has never left my side, or said I should go home. Not even when Kabuto tried to kill me. 

My relation with her has deepened, and we now have a better understanding of each other threw a few... Disagreements...

4/8/09

Hana

I had to smile. This boy was just too damn stubborn. Maybe he really could survive... Wait, what the hell am I thinking? Can I seriously be considering letting him into my life?

...It's a little late for that I think.

I got up and held his hands in mine. I looked down and took a deep breath. "If you want to try this, I guess I could train you. But I warn you, it isn't easy. My life is constantly in danger because of the man I serve. And if you truly want to stay with me, why you would I don't know, but if you do...you need to be prepared." I lifted my head so I could look into his eyes. "Hmm, we may need to get you some proper equipment, too." I smiled and kissed him softly.

"Shall we?" I asked against his lips, my fingers weaving into his.

3/31/09

Tsubasa

Well, at least she calmed down. If her life is dangerous, then I'll just have to raise to the occasion.

"If your life is as dangerous as you say it is, then why not show in an attempt to make me change my mind?" I said. Nothing can really scare a man with nothing to really live for.

"And if I'm not, then train me to meet the occasion. then we wouldn't have much of a problem huh?

Hana

"Sorry..." I sighed heavily and walked over to the bed. I put my head in my hands and tried so hard not to cry anymore. I hated feeling so weak, but he just wouldn't understand!

I started to think about what it would be like if he really DID stay with me. I'd finally feel like I was needed, not just in the way. Someone would actually pay REAL attention to me, which was something I only got from my brother. It was something I had wanted for as long as I could remember, and now that it was within reach, I wasn't sure it was right for me. After all, my life isn't what you'd call "simple". I'm not a safe person to be with, but now I'm wondering if he'd really risk all that just to be with me.

...It's kind of romantic if you think about it.

3/16/09

Tsubasa

"Not safe? Besides you, I have nothing left. I have no friends or family. At this moment, your the only thing that I live for."

I was beginning to get embrassed saying all these thing, but it was what I really felt. Everything I said I had meant. But she was still trying to get me to leave. What could be so bad that she didn't even want to tell me about it?

Maybe if she show me what it is, then I can get her to understand that I don't care about it. Get her to understand that the only thing I care about is her.

3/12/09

Hana

I chuckled sadly. "You'd be surprised..."

Why wasn't he leaving? What did he see in me that was so good anyway? So what if I nursed him back to health? So what if I saved his life despite the fact I had no idea if he was a spy? Big deal. I'm not a hero...I'm not someone a caring guy should be with. But how do I convince him of that? I'm too dangerous to be around, but he doesn't seem to want to understand that.

...Damn.

"If you knew what I was like...what I've been through...you wouldn't be with me. You'd run..." Uh oh. I turned to him and started crying into his chest. I gripped his shirt and just cried. "You shouldn't even be here. If he found you...if he knew you were here...It's not safe for you!"

3/9/09

Tsubasa

"To be honest, I don't even know what I was like two years ago. I could have ruthless, and mean. Or kind and caring." I said.

But those were not the only reasons, there was one that made me want to stay. The one I realize only moments ago. She didn't push me away, she didn't tell me to leave because she wanted to. She told me to leave for my own good.

"Besides, how can someone who saved my life, then nursed me back to heath be bad."

Hana

I shook my head and gripped the edge of the sink. "No...it isn't because of my strength. It isn't even because of my secret..." I closed my eyes and felt more tears fall out of me. Damn it...Why can't this be easy?

I thought about how badly I wanted him. Here he was, this boy that I just fell for, telling me how much he wants me. He isn't afraid of me. Hell...he may even love me. But I was still pushing him away. What the hell was I thinking?

I turned around and hugged him. I listened to his heart beat in his chest and tried to calm myself down. I smiled a little-his heart had started racing. "Why do you want to be with me so badly? You barely know me...You don't know what I'm like..."

3/2/09

Tsubasa

She's crying, I didn't mean to make her cry. I just wanted to tell her how I felt about her. So why was she crying? It must be something that I will never understand. Maybe its cause she can transform into that other form.

"Why? It isn't because of that insane power you have. That isn't why your turning me away is it?"

I had to ask. I had to know, but even if she was, wouldn't have cared. I'd still love this girl even if she killed me.

Hana

It was strange hearing him say that. Part of me wanted to push him away and say that could never happen. That he doesn't know my brother. But, I was touched that he was so open to me. Wait, what's the catch? The perfect guy for me literally falls out of a tree and now doesn't want to leave my side? Where are the hidden cameras? The laughing fans? Yeah right, Hana, they'd tell me. No one could ever love you.

I tried so hard not to cry again. He was making this harder than it needed to be. Why wouldn't he just leave? He pulled me closer to him and I felt his lips touch my neck ever so softly. It brought tears to my eyes.

I needed to tell him. "No," I said, barely breathing. "You can't stay. You have to go; I'm not right for you." I'm not right for anyone.

2/24/09

Tsubasa

I heard faint crying sounds. They were coming from Hana as she washed the dishes. She must have not wanted me to know she was crying.

I slowly got up and out of bed. I quietly approached her. The closer I got, the more she tensed up. Heh, she cute when she tries to be tough.

I wrapped my arms around her waist and held her close to me. I turned her towards me and kissed her again, this time not willing to let go even if her brother came in the room.

"I will not leave, no matter what your brother has to say. I will stay by your side till the day I die." I said kissing her again, more deeply than the last.

2/23/09

Hana

I didn't want to do it, but he needed to go. It broke my heart to ask him to leave, but I couldn't risk anyone finding out about him.

Why am I acting like I have something to hide? I don't. I found him in the forest, he fell from a tree, and simultaneously, I fell for him. What's so wrong about that? ...Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I don't even know anything about him. I know his name, that's pretty much it. But still...

I turned away from him and started washing the dishes. I had started to cry, but I didn't want him to see. I wasn't usually this soft, or emotional, but I felt like my heart was breaking. What if he left and I never saw him again?

I shook my head, trying to erase that thought from my mind. I couldn't think about that. He'll just have to find somewhere else to stay for now. I'll see him again...I hope.

2/13/09

Tsubasa

Hana had gotten out if bed and was talking to her brother, trying to somehow get him to think that nothing was wrong, and to get him to leave as soon as possible. It may have been a bit easier if she was waering pajamas of some kind.

But, her brother had left eventually. He trusted her to take care of herself, or not lie to him. When he left, Hana came over to me and told me, in a quiet voice to leave.

Kabuto

"Well, I wanted to take you for breakfast, but it's kind of late now."

For some reason, I kept eyeing her bed. I have no clue why, I trust my sister. I just...had this feeling...

Hana

"Of course I am." I carefully got out of bed, making sure the blanket covered Tsubasa, and walked over to him. "What's the plan for today?"

I kissed his cheek. Man, I wish he would just leave. I love my brother to neurons, don't get me wrong. But right now, I wished he'd just disappear.

Kabuto

"You're still in bed? Are you feeling all right?"

It's not like my sister of all people to stay in bed for so long. Either she's sick, or she's been overworking herself again.

Or it's a boy.

I took a step toward her and noticed that she tensed. What was she hiding in there?

"You okay?"

Hana

I was so happy that words would fail to describe it. I've never felt this whole, this complete, until I met Tsubasa. And now, although I knew he'd leave eventually, all that mattered was being near him.

...Until that is my brother walked in. Shit, I forgot we were supposed to go out this morning. I hope he hadn't seen Tsubasa.

Although I was still panting a little, I whispered, "Stay down." I pretended to yawn and looked up at Kabuto. "Morning, ani-kun."

2/12/09

Tsubasa

All types of things were going through my mind. I wanted to kiss her again. I wanted to touch her, to hold her. But most importantly I wanted her by my side. I knew I had to leave, but I really didn't want to.

I leaned in to kiss Hana agin, but the door swung open with a man standing in there. I froze instantly, and Hana seemd to tense up. Does she know who this guy is?

He must not have noticed that there was an extra person in Hana's bed. Now how to get out of this nice little situation?

2/11/09

Hana

My heart was racing wildly when his lips touched mine. Uhh...why is he kissing me? And then when he didn't pull away right away, and instead kissed me deeper, I felt like my chest was going to explode. I must've been like UBER red.

But I couldn't help but smile. And, shockingly, I kissed him back. I didn't care why, I just completely and utterly melted in his arms. This had to have been a dream, because there's no way I would be this lucky in the real world.

When he pulled away, I admit I was kind of upset it ended. But I stared into his eyes and, as I tried hopelessly to fill my suddenly empty lungs, I imagined what must've been going through his mind. Cuz if it was anything like what was running through mine...

2/10/09

Tsubasa

I was so embrassed that I thought I'd say something really dumb. Or say what I wanted to say but sound like a dork. Was matters concernig love always this damn complex?

I'd been stareing at her for what semmed like an eternity. I couldn't speak, or rather I didn't trust myself to say what I really wanted. So I did the only thing I thought would get the message across.

I kissed her. Not on her cheek, or a little peck, it was a full on very intimate kiss. It seamed to last for hour, until I finally stopped.

Hana

...Damn. What am I going to do now? I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. What should I say? Well, he won't actually know I like him, will he?

Yeah, with my luck, he probably knows. Maybe I was talking in my sleep again. That would seriously suck.

"I'm not awake," I said softly. "You're imagining things."

I wonder what's so important that he wants to tell me. Hmm...maybe he's an assassin that was hired to kill me. That'd be funny, huh?

"What's on your mind, Tsubasa?"

2/9/09

Tsubasa

I tensed up once I felt Hana's lips on my cheek. The person calling her name must have went away by now. I couldn't tell, only thing on my mind was Hana.

How long has she been awake? Why did she kiss my cheek? Should I try to kiss her? No, a kiss on the cheek can be recieved as a friendly gesture. That's all it could have been, right?

I'm beginning to thik that it is me that she was refering too in her dreams.

"Hana," I whispered "I know your awake. I have somthing important to tell you."

Kabuto

"Hana! Hey, come on!"

Why was she not answering me? She knows that we always go out before the sun rises. What could possibly be keeping her from coming?

Some part of me wanted to go in there and see what was taking so long, but I knew how she'd reacted the last time I'd decided to do that, and the thought quickly vanished from my mind.

I sighed and sat by a tree. She'd come out eventually, I kept telling myself. It's not like she's got a boy in there with her, right?

Hana

I heard that voice again, and it stirred me from my sleep. I slowly opened my eyes and saw that I was laying next to...Tsubasa? This had to still be a dream. There's no way he'd really do that...is there?

I wanted to see who it was that was calling me, but I didn't want to move from his arms. So, I pretended to still be asleep and snuggled closer to him. I heard the soft beating of his heart, his steady breathing, and I can't really describe it, but being there with him made me feel warm and safe. It was a feeling I wish I could always have, and if I let this one go, I'd never know it again.

Without giving myself time to think about it, I leaned up toward him and kissed his cheek.

...Man I'd have a lot of explaining to do now. Plus, I was now red hot from embarrassment. ...Oh boy.

2/7/09

Tsubasa

In a split second decision, I chose to hide under the covers that Hana was using. I silently prayed the wouldn't wake from this. The person calling her sounded like a male. Can't be that much older than Hana herself.

As I lay there, I noticed that Hana was cold. She wasn't shivering or nothing. Just her skin felt really cold. Before I had a chance to think thungs through, I was already pressing myself closer to her while wrapping my arms around her to get even closer. She didn't wake but she did responed by sunngling even closer to me.

If I wasn't this close to her, wouldn't have believe what I just heard. Who would have thought that those few words world seemingly stop time. The last thing I thought I'd hear, Was the same thing I so desperatly wanted to hear.

I was so confused that even started to contridict myself. Maybe it wasn't me she was refering to. It could have been someone else with the same name.

Time resumed nomal speed, if not than picked up it's pace as if to make up for lost time. There was a gentle knock at the door. I was hoping that my body was so close to Hana's that it looked like only one person was it this bed.

If only I could turn invisible right now, that would be very helpful.

Hana

I heard someone call my name, but I didn't want to wake up yet. I rolled over and smiled wider. "I love you, Tsubasa-kun," I mumbled.

I suddenly felt like something was holding me. I wasn't sure what to think, but I liked the way it made me feel, so I snuggled up to whatever it was. For a brief second, I thought maybe it was Tsubasa. But then I remembered that there was no way he'd do that to someone he doesn't really know. Oh well...

I heard the name call me again and I moaned. "Five more minutes," I mumbled softly.

2/6/09

Tsubasa

Hana looked beautiful, that was obvious. Not many people would let a complete stranger in their home, so she was knid as well.

What would a girl like that see in me? I'm not all that interesting. I don't lead any action packed life. I have no money, or job. No special skills that would interest her.

I had planned to leave a few hours after she fell alseep, but I couldn't look away from her. I wanted to ask her to come with me. I knew she would say no. My past doesn't interest her.

"Hana, I love you." Huh, why the hell did I say that. Good thing she's alseep, otherwise there would be hell to pay.

As I was watching her and thinking about where to go next, I heard a door open. There was someone yelling for Hana. I choose to stay still, and sit there. Maybe they won't notice me here if I don't move. What's up with week? It's just one surprise after another.

Hana

"Hmm...okay then." I smiled at him and got into bed. "Good night."

I was happy. He'd still be around when I woke up. Something was telling me that maybe he was lying and that he'd leave as soon as I shut my eyes, but I trusted him. I yawned again and tried not to shut my eyes yet, but I was just way too tired.

Before I knew it, I was dreaming of me and him together. I had always hoped there was someone meant for me, but was it possible that I'd found him when I'd least expected it? Well, one thing was for sure...

I'd fallen for this mysterious guy. How far was uncertain, but I knew I had. Heh, I wonder what he'd say if he knew.

2/5/09

Tsubasa

Now that came out of no where. would I leave? No, probably not. Something told me I should stay. Why was simple, I loved her. How that happened, is a complete mystery.

"No," I forced my voice to sound calm, I didn't want her to think anything strange was going through my head " I'll be right here when you wake up."

She looked relieved. Was it cause she finally would have a chance to sleep? Or was it something else? I'll have to ask later. Right now she really needed to sleep.

"Good night"

2/4/09

Hana

"Hmm? Oh no, it's okay. I'm fine, really."

That was a flat out lie. I was more exhausted than I had ever been in my life, and I'm sure my stomach had become a monster, it certainly sounded like one. I looked at my bed and thought of how nice it would be to just go to sleep.

Wait, I can't go to sleep! If I do, he'll probably leave. I can't let him go without saying good-bye. So, I'll just do my best to stay awake and...

Before I knew it, my head had become very heavy and I yawned. I really should go to sleep...

"Hey, Tsubasa?" I looked over at him. I cannot believe I'm really about to ask him this, but I've been known to act before thinking. I just hope he doesn't think I'm really strange for it. "If I actually did fall asleep, would you leave?"

Okay, now my cheeks burned with embarrassment. I looked down at my lap and cursed under my breath. Why the hell would I ask him something like that? It's not that I don't trust him, because for some reason, I trust him completely. But, what would he say if I fell asleep? Geez, this is awkward...

Tsubasa

Hana's face was so red I couldn't if mines was burning more than hers. I felt like kid falling in love for the first time. Well as far as I can remember, it is the first time. Maybe I should just ask her to marry me or something, is that how it usually goes?

There was an awkward silence as we just stared at each other. What did she think of me? Am I cute or not? Would her family accept me? Why does this bother me so much?

I walked over to a chair in the corner farthest from the bed and sat down.

"You should rest. You look like you need it" I didn't want to keep her up more than I already have. She looked like she was about to collapse from lack of sleep. Come to think of it, I don't think that she even ate that much. Maybe she was watching me in case I was some kind of threat?

Suddenly I realized that I was anticapated something. Did I want her to sleep so I could without having to say goodbye? Or was it that I wanted watch her sleep?

What have I become? A pervert? No, I've become a victim of cupid's stupid arrow. This had better be worth the risk.

Hana

He doesn't know what it looks like? Then...does that mean how he got it is a mystery as well? "It...kind of looks like..." I blushed a little. "It's kind of like a cross, but it has little scars through it too."

I suddenly felt very self-conscious, as if it was my scar, not his. I wanted to know more about him, but something was telling me he was just as confused by this as I was.

I yawned involuntarily. "Oops, sorry...I haven't slept much the past few days." Not at all, actually, but I couldn't tell him that. He'd think I was staring at him while he slept or something. And I so wasn't. I just...made sure he was all right.

Hey, when I'm used to being alone in my hut, it's a little weird to have a guy sleeping in your bed.

For some reason, my heart began to hurt. I realized that he would probably want to leave now, considering I'm a complete stranger, and he didn't seem like the type to stay anywhere long. I sighed quietly. I really wanted him to stay, but how would I tell him that? He's a complete stranger!

...A complete stranger who is very cute when he blushes. ...Oh God, what if I'm starting to fall for him? I just met the guy! But that would explain why I didn't want him to leave, or why I felt so embarrassed when I realized he was still watching me. I must've turned a deep red. Is it hot in here?

2/3/09

Tsubasa

I noticed that she looked extremely tired. How long had I been here? How many nights did she stay up looking after me?

She left and returned with food and tea. My arm felt like it was still being pull from my shoulder. The rest of my body was stiff. I really felt like running, but I didn't want to leave this girl here all alone. I wanted to stay here forever, but that was impossible. I would have to leave eventually. I still don't know who I am.

She was looking embrassed but she wasn't the only one. I must have turned bright red at her mentioning my scar. All I know about it is that it's there.

"Wha...What does it look like? I don't know how I got it, or what it looks like. I only know it there because of the few people who have seen it."

It felt like steam was coming ears I was so embrassed.

Hana

I smiled and went into the kitchen again. When I came back out, I had a bowl of ramen and more tea for him. I placed it on the table and took the empty things away.

"It's no trouble, really. You've been unconscious for a while." I sat in my chair near his bed and rubbed my neck. "I'm Hana."

He'd been here for almost three days, and this was the first time I'd ever talked to him. I hadn't slept at all in that time, because I wanted to make sure he was all right. It's tiring, you know, tending to someone who probably just wants to run away. But he wasn't well enough to go yet, so I didn't plan on letting him go.

I had to make conversation. I didn't want him to notice I had started blushing.

"That's an interesting scar you have." I said.

"That's an interesting scar you have"?? I felt like slapping myself in the forehead. What kind of boneheaded comment is that?

Now I was embarrassed.

2/2/09

Tsubasa

I felt extremely uncomfortable as she changed my bandages. She didn't mention it, but I could tell she had heard what I'd said. My temperature rose as I became extremely embrassed. I guess some girl are open minded.

I fell back sleep before she even finished changeing my bandages. I dream of a life I was sure had a 1/1,000,000 chances of happening. Me and this girl together.

Now this is a plot twist on my life. I've never trusted anyone this much after just meeting them. Not even if they saved my life. I've left hospitals with a broken arms, legs, and ribs the moment I woke up. But for some unknown reason, I wanted to stay here with here. No, that's a lie, I do know the reason.

I'm falling for her.

I haven't fallen far yet. Should I try to climb back out? Or see how far this hole goes. At the moment, I see no bottom but I'm falling fast.

I woke around midnight later that same day. There was tea beside me but it was cold after all the hours it sat there. I drank it anyways and ate the food next to it.

It was only after I ate that I realized I had no shirt on. What about the scar on my back, did she see it? Of course she saw it. She had to dress my wounds so it's only natural that she took off my shirt. What does she think of it? I hope she wasn't grossed out by it.

I got out of bed and find my shirt. It was neatly folded on a dresser close to the door. I put it on and turned around to see a pair of eyes piercing through me. It was frightening and somehow, amusing.

"Hi, um, I'm Tsubasa. Thank you for welcoming me into your home and treating my wounds."

Now this is weird, I feel ackward.

Hana

I wasn't sure if I should throw a book at him, or smile to myself for the sweet comment. So instead, I changed his bandages and went to get him some tea.

I'm not usually this open to letting others stay in my home, so why was I now? I shook my head and put the pot on the stove. For some reason, I felt happy that I had someone to take care of. Even though I knew he'd be gone before I really got to know him, I was glad to have someone around. I didn't feel as lonely.

I returned with the tea and put it next to his bed. I sat in my chair and looked out the window.

Heh, he's kind of cute.

1/30/09

Tsubasa

I awoke in, what looked like a hut, aching all over but the pain was rapidly decreasing. I thought I had died, but I felt better than before. If I felt no pain, than am I dead? Why am I so calm about it? Maybe it cause I lived such a horrible life that I no longer care for it.

If I have any regrets, it's that I never found that "it". Everyone seems to find it, but not me. Every time I get close, it slips right through my fingers or I let it go. this thing is something that has to be found, then earned. But I never meet those standards. Whenever it slipped away I always run into a forest and start singing.

There's gotta be somebody for me out there, that's what I always tell myself anyway.

When I looked around the room, I saw this girl. If she was the same girl I saw earlier I can't tell. My brain's still fuzzy from the fall. She must have noticed that I woke up cause she then went away then return later with food.

As she got closer I got a good look of her face. "If this is heaven, then she must be an angel. But, if this is hell, then how did such a beautiful girl end up here." I said in a low voice. If she heard me, I'd have to run regardless of my injuries. Cause saying thing like to a girl you don't know usually end with the being a pervert, and the throwing something at him.

1/28/09

Hana

I heard it and immediately reacted. If he hit the ground going at that speed, he'd surely kill himself.

I jumped quickly over to him and caught him just before he hit the ground. I placed him down gently and looked down at him. I wanted to say something, but I wasn't sure what, so I just looked at him. Why was he in that tree in the first place?

1/23/09

Tsubasa

What was that? Who is she? Why is she here? what was she doing? What did she want?

Whatever it was that she was doing, it looks like she done now. I'm still trembling from earlier. She's not your average everyday girl, where does she come from?

She must be leaving soon so I can pass out from shock, but I really need to know who she is.

Just as I got up to call her, the branch that had become so comfortable had finally shown that it could not support my weight. It snapped even before I could yell for help. Now I'm falling down a tree, hitting branch after branch on the way down. This now, is the worst day ever.

Hana

I sighed. Peeking out of the corner of my eye, I noticed that he seemed afraid of me. I smiled and decided to stop training for now. I giggled softly to myself and started walking away. I really wanted to know why he was there, who he was, and why he seemed so interested in what I was doing, but I dropped it. If he really wants to know, he'll follow me.

But what if he doesn't? I stopped walking and sighed deeply. Damn this curiosity...

1/22/09

Tsubasa

Hey, she looked away. What am I ugly? Is it somthing I did? should I chase her and apoligze wait no i did nothing wrong. So I dont need to worry maybe she's just one of those shy girls who get nervous when others stare at them.

What this feeling? Terror? Me? I feel terrorified of this girl. But why now all of a sudden? Soon as she turned another tree fell. then, she turned and faced me again. Something about her was different, I could see this aura eminating from her. It soon be came clear that she was messing with me when all of the trees around me began to crumble.

What did she want from me!

Hana

I wished I knew what was going through his head. Why was he just sitting there staring at me? Should I go over to him? I shook my head and I looked away. No, I'm just paranoid.

I took a deep breath and, wary that he was still watching, I gathered chakra in my hands and attacked another tree. This one fell just as easily as the others, and I couldn't help but smile. Then, I decided it was time for a change. So, with another look at the guy in the tree, I unleashed my curse mark and within seconds, the only tree left standing was the one with the mysterious guy in it. My smile grew.

1/20/09

Tsubasa

Everything was going fine, or atleast as fine as it could with no food, water, or money. Hell, even this branch was beginning to become comfortable. This is my sad life.

As I was beginning to doze off I saw this girl standing in a tree looking down. She was proud of something but following her gaze all I could see were a couple of trees that looked liked it had been blown away from its roots. Surely that couldn't have been her doing, could it? I'd herad about ninjas and the arts that they used. Maybe she was one of them?

Crap she spotted me. And she doesn't look to happy to know that i'm here. Well tough luck girl I saw this tree first and I'll be damned if I have to move without food or water or shelter.

Hana

I ran high in the trees and kept telling myself not to stop. I had to train somewhere I knew people wouldn't find me. Cuz it'd be weird to all of a sudden see snakes shoot out of a girl like me. No one knows I lived with Orochimaru, so I have to keep my training a secret. I found a suitable branch to start with and began practicing my medical ninjutsu. My brother says I don't need to train anymore, but I think he's just afraid that I'll be better than him.

Bingo! I hit the trunk of the tree and it began to crumble. I smiled happily and went off to the next tree, doing the same thing to it. I smiled wider and sat on a high branch, surveying my work. "Not a bad day," I said. Then, I spotted what looked like a guy in a tree, and I froze. Damn it, did he see me?

1/15/09

Tsubasa

I have nothing, literally nothing. No food, water, money, and my only shelter is this tree. Great for rain, bad for wind, and extremly uncomfortable. The only way this could get any worse is if some girl walks by, notices me, and thinks i'm some sort of pervert without a life. Yup, then my "Worst day ever," would be complete. But what the odds of me seeing a girl out in the middle of a forest? And the only way she'd see me is if this branch were to break, sending me down to ground level. What are the odds of that? I wonder what the nearest village is? I been stuck in this forest way too long. Damn my sense of direction!

1/13/09

Tsubasa Sagauchi

Name:Tsubasa Sagauchi
Age:16
Birthday:10 April
Family: Unknown
History: Not much to say, really. As far as he can remember, which isn't far due too amnesia, he been alone. his age name and birthday are all made up. Awoke two years ago in a valley not knowing who he was where he came from or how he got there. wandered around aimlessly. stole food to survive. He never stays in a village longer than a week.
Personality: He's shy and kinda reserved. Unwilling to openly trust anyone. Doesn't have any friends, at least none that he knows of. Almost always nervous around girls, thinks of them as an unstable destructive force.
Appearance: Short messy hair, glasses and a huge scar across his back. a lot like this pic. ( I have no clue as to who this is.
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1/12/09

Hana Yakushi (the minimized version)

Name: Hana Yakushi
Age: 19
Birthday: 18 February
Family: Kabuto Yakushi (older brother)
History: When she was 4, her brother took her from Konohagakure to follow Orochimaru. When she turned 8, she proved her strength and potential to Orochimaru and he gave her the curse mark. As a young teenager, she learned various medical ninjutsu from her brother as well as Orochimaru's secret snake jutsu (i.e. summoning and inner snake jutsu [shooting them from her arms/mouth]). Once she turned 17, she and Kabuto left Otogakure to become permanent spies in Konoha, where they currently reside.
Personality: She's very independent, but she absolutely adores her brother. She's very protective of him as well as Orochimaru. Although she's never known her real parents, she's always seen Orochimaru as a dad. She has never been in love. When she met Kakashi, the two became instant best friends. You hardly see one without the other.
Appearance: I pretty much look like a female Kabuto. I look a lot like this pic, but with black eyes instead of purple. (By the way, this is Suigintou from Rozen Maiden. I love what she looks like^^)

Theme Songs: She has many, but the main ones are:
Nickelback- Gotta Be Somebody
Linkin Park- Leave Out All the Rest
Alanis Morissette- I'm A Bitch
David Cook- Porcelain